I miss 1999.  It was the last year I lived in Michigan, and it was probably the best year of my life.  I don't remember so much about it anymore, and I'm sort of tired of living in memories.  I love the people I knew there, and I miss them a lot, but my relationships with them, though based on memories, are nothing like the way they used to be.

I was talking to Lana the other day, and she said that she was looking forward to the Union Board reunions.  I didn't say anything, but I'm really not looking forward to them.  I'm sort of looking forward to my high school reunions, but not so much the Union Board one.  It's apparently every two years, and I don't know if I could endure that so often.  I really hate Bloomington, and I hate Bloomington people in general, but it remains to be seen how my relationship with Union Board people will turn out.  I can't wait to see how fat HS people have gotten, and how many babies they've made, but I'm not sure I really want to see that with Union Board people.  They're a different kind of species than I'm used to.  The people that I thought I'd be getting along well with has sort of turned out to be the opposite of reality, and I'm not able to predict the office drama, like I often can elsewhere.

I just don't think it's such a hot idea to live in the past.  I've moved over ten times, and I don't like leaving stuff behind.  It hurts too much to hold on to it.  The memories are great, but to live in them is terrible.  Also, it's hard to maintain relationships with so many people when you're so busy.  I sort of wish that I didn't know so many people, because I feel like I'm neglecting them all.  Anyway...this turned out to be a big rant that doesn't really make any sense.

I'm sorry for those people who had to endure my anger yesterday.  I was really angry at one person, who almost got it, but I was too much of a chicken shit to tell that individual that this was about them.  But whatever...that was yesterday.  I'm sorry Kathleen for taking out my anger on you, because me being angry in general wasn't anything to do with you at all, but I let things get blown out of proportion, which was silly.  Whatever.  Tomorrow is a new day.

However, I am tired of being around stupid people.  Lots of people around here are incredibly unintelligent, and it makes the day a long slow affair.  Hopefully, I stop running into stupid people, or maybe I'll send less time hanging around...just lock myself up in my room and play some music and be alone.  I think I could use that right now.

Just in case anyone was wondering, just because people want to make conversation doesn't mean they want to get in each others pants.  Are we like 13 years old?  Come on now.  Thanks to anyone who has made me feel awkward this week for my desire to make conversation.  This one goes out to you.  Relationships, and life in general, are more than just sex.  Anyone who has a problem with that needs to stay the fuck away from me.  I can't handle people who have something stuck so far up their asses that they can't have a fucking conversation with me.  That's all.

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